TGIF

I am very sad because I was unabel to teach my class this morning. Starting on my way home last night I started having sharp pinching type cramps. Unfortunately it has been almost 24 hours and they have not gone away. I am not sure what is causing them and I am afraid I may have pushed it too hard coaching yesterday. It is quite sad, I have a job I absolutely love and I may not be able to continue to do it because of my health and the health of the baby. It is frustrating having all of this energy and wanting to wor out and not being able to.

I haven't been writing much because I didn't feel that I have much to write about now, especially since I can't work out. Then it occured to me that I have tons to write about. No I can't workout but I am having a baby. I am having a baby!!! So, it is very important that I eat clean and healthy and be careful not to gain weight, well more than I should. Plus with everything I have been through I am sure there are other women out there that are going through the same things that I have been through. I have had two miscarrages and now I have been blessed. Am I scared that I may still lose the baby? Yeah shitless! Every cramp, every pinch, every anything I feel worries me. I am worried that I am not eating enough, that I am not getting the right nutrients, that something will be wrong. But more than anything I am worried how we are going to take care of this baby. So as I go thought my mental madness I am going to keep you all posted.